Adult-FanFiction.org : Anime

Super Psycho Love	By : Rhov Category: +. to F > Fairy Tail Views: 9712 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
Disclaimer: Fairy Tail is the property of Hiro Mashima. I make no money, I just do this for my own pleasure.

Chapter List
- 7
- 8
- 9
Chapter 8

I Love You and Despise You
Gray decided to let Lucy sleep in. After all, it had been an exhausting night, and she had the love bruises to prove it. He lightly touched one on her neck, oddly a lot bigger than he thought it would be. He realized that anyone would be able to see a mark like that, and although he wanted the whole world to know Lucy was his, he figured that she probably needed time to cover up something like that.
He found his clothes, dressed, and slipped out silently to walk into the nearly empty street. The sun had just risen, chill still clung to the air, and silence reigned for this magical moment before the noise and heat of the day began. It was the time of day Gray loved: silent, cold, filled with hopes.
He went to the guild hall, where Mira had just started up a pot of coffee. She smiled and wordlessly handed him a steaming cup. He supposed he looked as worn out as he felt, and Mira knew better than to ask about the dark circles under his eyes. The blush on her cheeks and twinkle in her eyes showed that she knew perfectly well what happened.
Only a few people were in the building that early. Nab was once again at the mission board seeking that perfect request he would never find. Macao and Wakaba … seriously, it was like those two old guys never left the building.
Gray settled in a corner to watch the crowd slowly entering and to think. The previous night, when Lucy asked what he would do if she cheated on him, she had a odd pitch to her voice. Gray had said nothing about it at the time, lost in the moment of passion, but it troubled him now.
Which man could it be? Laxus was already with another woman, if rumors could be believed. Gajeel and Levy were pretty close, so probably not him. Loke had not showed his face since the breakup, but it was highly possible that he appeared out of nowhere to Lucy. Gray had to admit, he hated the fact that Loke could open his gate anywhere, at any time, and although he was the one who called it off with Lucy, there was never a precise reason given as to why the playboy dumped her.
And then … there was Natsu.
Would Lucy actually go back to that hotheaded Dragon Slayer? Just the thought of it chilled Gray's blood. If that flame-brain dared to touch her, he would beat the living hell out of him, nakama or not!
But what if Lucy went back willingly?
No! He refused to believe that it was even possible. Lucy was known to flirt around from time to time, but she was not the sort of woman who would cheat on a person. Besides, Gray kept her so busy at night, she should be too sore to have an affair on the side.
But if she did…
His mind instantly shut down at the thought of it. Something, an internal defense mechanism perhaps, did not allow him to think about such a horrible possibility. Still, it worried Gray. Things seemed to be perfect with Lucy. She was fun, smart, and strong; she did not mind his stripping habit, he felt comfortable talking with her, and she was damn good in bed. Really, it was perfect.
Too perfect.
And that troubled Gray.

"I wouldn't want you to find some other guy to ease your aches."
"What would you do if I did something like that?"
"Kill whoever dared to touch you."
"You'd … kill him?"
"And then I'd have to seriously punish you, my little vixen. So don't ever do that."

He had said those words so lightly, almost jokingly, but he meant it in all fatalistic seriousness. If Lucy ever cheated on him, he would probably go insane from the bitter feeling of betrayal. He probably really would be tempted to kill a person in the heat of passion and throes of despair.
These dark worries were interrupted by a man in a suit standing right in front of him, appearing out of nowhere. Either Loke had just opened his gate, or Gray really was not paying attention to his surroundings. The distrust Gray felt still showed in his face when he looked up and glared at the Celestial Spirit.
"Do you have a problem, Loke?" he asked caustically.
The Lion sat down at the table. "I thought you should know, Lucy summoned me yesterday."
Gray's fears surged in him. That forbidden area of his mind, where darkness hid just barely out of view, threatened to crack open. "She … called you out? Why?" he demanded, shivering slightly, wondering if he really wanted to hear about it. As his fist tightened, his knuckles cracked.
"For a fight," Loke told him, seeing the barely-suppressed rage. "She went on a mission yesterday. Did she tell you about it?"
Gray's tension eased up. Just for a mission, eh? Using her spirit keys for something like that was normal, after all. "She … no, she didn't say anything about it. We … um … didn't really have time to talk." He recalled she said something about training a puppy, but after that it was all sex.
"The enemy was only a little troubling, but I realized something in the brief time that I was fighting. I thought you should know." Loke looked guilty for snitching, but he also appeared to be worried. "Natsu was with her. I noticed you weren't around. I came back here after the mission, and Mira said you were away. Now, it's none of my business, but Lucy is my master. I love her, and I worry about her. I want her happiness, but I'm worried about who she's more happy with: you … or Natsu?"
Gray shook his head. It didn't make sense! A fight? A mission? And with Natsu? "Lucy said nothing about a mission, and I told her that morning to stay away from Natsu. She wouldn't have gone behind my back like that. And what's this about you being in love with her when you're the one who broke up with her?" he snapped peevishly.
"Look, that's not the issue here," Loke insisted. "I broke up with Lucy for a reason. I saw it early on, but obviously you haven't noticed it yet. It's the same reason Laxus broke up with her, and why Gajeel left her. She uses people. Right now, she's either using you or she's using Natsu, I don't know which, but I don't like it."
"I don't want to hear you lying and badmouthing my girlfriend," Gray warned.
Mira came over hesitantly. "Sorry, I overheard a little." She looked over to Gray. "Lucy really did go on a mission yesterday," she told him, "and Natsu went with her."
Gray scoffed at that. "That bastard probably just stalked her."
Mira shook her head. "She asked him to go. She said she wanted to still be friends with Natsu. I don't think it's something to get worried about, Loke." She patted the Celestial Spirit's back. "Lucy and Natsu can still be friends and go on missions, right?"
Loke assured her, "That's fine, if that's all they're doing. I just thought it was a little weird, that's all."
"Then let it drop," Gray growled. He and Lucy needed a serious talk, if she really was sneaking behind his back and doing missions with other men.
"Gray," Loke said, looking at him with a bit of worry, "don't get mad at people before you hear them out completely. I'm just trying to warn you. Lucy is using her boyfriends in a plot for revenge. Why do you think I left her when I love her so much?"
Gray sprang from his chair and leaned over the table, knocking over his coffee cup. An ice knife was in his hands, and the glittering white blade pressed against Loke's throat. "Say those words again and I will send you back to the Spirit World the hard way."
"Gray!"
He pulled back at Lucy's yell and saw her standing in the guild doorway. Instantly, he backed off and let the knife vanish into twinkling bits of ice. Lucy walked over to them and sat by Gray's side.
"Why are you threatening one of my Spirits?" she asked.
Gray sneered over at Loke. How could this playboy say he loved her? How dare he claim that when he was accusing Lucy of such horrible, shameful things.
"He was talking shit about you. Sorry if it pissed me off a bit."
She sighed and glared over at Loke. "Leave … now! Before I force-close your gate."
Loke rose from the table and looked at those two. This was wrong, all wrong! He could see the possessiveness in Gray's face, and Lucy looked mad as hell, yet fear was in her eyes along with the anger. Loke closed his eyes and shook his head. He had known enough humans in his existence to see the signs. He just sincerely hoped that when this psychotic, twisted love ended, Lucy would call upon him to protect her from the rage of both Gray and Natsu.
"Loke, this is an order," she said sternly. "Don't come out again until I summon you."
He nodded in understanding. She wanted to hide her sins. Fine! Gray was a smart guy. He was probably starting to figure it out anyway.
"I'll be going then," he muttered. "Be careful, Lucy. You too, Gray." Then Loke vanished in a golden flash.
Lucy sighed. It was bad enough that she had rushed here as soon as she woke up, worried what might happen if Natsu got to Gray first and told him about yesterday. Now she had to worry about Loke, too. Loke, who figured her out in such a short period of time, could appear to Gray anywhere, at any time.
All she wanted was for this thing with Gray to work out, to have a little fun in her life after six months of depressing hell, yet her past deeds kept coming up to haunt her.
"A protein shake, Lucy?" Mira asked after a few moments of tense silence.
"Ah … yeah, thanks." While the bartender left to fetch her breakfast, Lucy looked over to Gray. "Look, I…"
"Is he right?" Gray demanded angrily.
Lucy flinched back at the harsh tone. "I don't know what he said," she pointed out.
"He said you went on a mission with Natsu. You didn't say anything about it last night."
"We didn't really talk last night," she muttered with a blush.
"I already warned you, I don't want you being near Natsu," Gray insisted sternly.
"Look, I was just trying to be friendly with him," she lied, feeling bitterness in her stomach.
"I don't like it, okay!" he snapped.
Lucy backed down at the shout, and a few people in the guild looked over in worry. The fierceness in Gray's eyes worried her.
"Okay," she whispered, shivering a little. "I'll stay away from him."
He nodded, trusting her to keep her word. Then the anger flowed away. "I'm sorry," Gray muttered, realizing he was being a real jerk about this. "I just don't trust Natsu."
Lucy weaved her hands around his arm and hugged it while resting her chin on his shoulder. "Do you trust me?"
He smiled down into those huge, brown eyes and stroked her golden head. "Of course I do." He leaned over and kissed her on the forehead. "Do you forgive me?"
"You should always forgive the ones you love," she smiled.
He rubbed his nose against hers, but still refrained from kissing her in public. "I don't deserve you."
"Too bad, you're stuck with me," she teased, sneaking a kiss to his cheek and instantly blushing for doing that much in the middle of the guild.
The breakfast shake arrived, and Gray got more coffee to replace the cup he knocked over. The guild had already forgotten about the little argument between Gray and Loke. Morning brought more members. Laughter and shouts filled the hall. Lucy waved excitedly to Levy, then she leaned over and whispered to Gray to point out the red mark on the side of her friend's neck.
"Much like your mark," he whispered back, feeling smug when she blushed brightly.
Lucy's heart plummeted a little when he pointed it out. She had hurried to the guild so fast, she forgot to cover the purplish-red mark. The weight of not telling him how she originally got that hickey churned her stomach.
Eventually, Natsu entered the guild hall, but this time without Happy. He looked haggard, as if he had been out all night, and the darkness under his eyes showed lack of sleep. Lucy watched him, trying not to make it obvious. Luckily, Natsu walked straight to the bar, got a drink, and went to the mission board. Lucy still waited in tense anticipation. There was no way he would let yesterday go without at least some mention.
Natsu apparently did not pick a mission for the day. He sat across the room, but his eyes were firmly on her. Every time she glanced over to him, those dark green eyes were narrow and piercing. Gray might teasingly call Natsu Squinty Eyes, but those eyes could strike terror into anyone when filled with hate like that. She tried not to look over too often. Those eyes terrified her and thrilled her. They were eyes that threatened revenge and promised seduction. She began to shiver under the intensity of his stare.
She was ready to tempt Gray into going back home with her, using sex once again as an excuse, anything to escape the inevitable confrontation. However, before she could pull his attention away from Elfman, pink hair loomed over her. Natsu glared down at Lucy, then shifted his eyes to Gray. They both looked up with varying expressions of fear and loathing.
"You have a lot of nerve," he seethed.
Gray leaped up and slammed his hands on the table as he leaned over into the Dragon Slayer's face. "Ya got a problem, squinty-eyes?"
"Yeah, in fact, I do."
"Natsu…" Lucy gasped in warning.
"You're with the girl I love, droopy-eyes."
The anger from earlier, hearing Loke declare that he still had feelings for Lucy, surged once more. Instead of a knife, Gray punched Natsu in the face, sending him stumbling backwards. Lucy gasped, and Levy tried to pull her out of the way of the impending fight.
"She's my girlfriend now, asshole!" Gray bellowed. "You keep your hands off of her."
"Oh really?" Natsu laughed, wiping some blood off from his nose. "Is that what she wants, though?"
Lucy pulled away from Levy and walked up beside Gray to face the Dragon Slayer solidly. "I told you yesterday, Natsu. Gray is my boyfriend, so just give up already. Learn your lesson, learn to treat women with more respect, and leave me alone."
"Leave you alone?" Gray questioned, and he nearly leaped at Natsu. "What the hell did you do to her yesterday, you pervert?"
"Gray," Lucy warned, holding him back. "I cleared it up already. Natsu, I don't need to tell you again. I love Gray, not you."
"You're lying!" the Dragon Slayer sneered. "You do love me. Deep down inside, you will always belong to me. Even if you don't realize it, you're mine. I marked you, right…" He looked to the bruise on her neck and saw it had a different shape. Natsu's teeth clenched. In soft words brimming with disgust, he sneered, "That's not my mark."
Lucy touched her neck in self-consciousness. "Because I'm not yours, Natsu."
"Wrong, Lucy. You will always be my treasure, and I will hoard you. You'll be my woman again … whether you want it or not."
The guild fell silent at such vicious words.
Elfman softly warned, "Natsu, that's not manly."
"I don't care!" Natsu sneered. "I don't care what you think, and I don't care what Lucy claims, and I sure as hell don't give a fuck about what that stripper thinks."
Gray stomped up to Natsu, glaring right into his eyes. "Touch her, and I swear I will kill you."
Mira gasped at the threat. "Gray! Don't!"
Natsu smirked up at him. "She's going to come back to me some day, and I'll laugh my ass off at you."
"Hey!" Lucy shouted. "What do you think I am, some prize to fight over?"
Both boys looked a little guilty. They had both thought something like that at some point.
"I'm no one's property. I decide who I want to love." She reached up and caressed Gray's cheek; he smiled haughtily at her affection. "Gray is the man I picked. You need to grow up and accept that, Natsu."
Around them, the guild began to mutter. Natsu glared from side to side as he heard all the whispers clearly.
"She's right, she's not a trophy."
"You can't force someone to love you."
"Shouldn't have broken her heart in the first place."
"At least she finally settled down with one guy."
"They're a cute couple, Gray and Lucy."
"Good for her, standing up to him like that!"
"Men are such idiots."
"You lost your chance, Natsu."
Natsu shook his head wildly. "Wrong! You're all wrong! She's mine!"
With an enraged shout, both of his fists swung down. Gray yanked Lucy out of the way, but their aim was just behind the two, to the table where they had been sitting. Those flaming fists slammed into the table, crushing it into splinters set on fire. Lucy hid behind Gray, trembling at the madness in Natsu's face, and he held his arm out to block her protectively from the raging Dragon Slayer. Natsu stood there, hunched over the demolished table, panting hard at the outburst. Then his face swung over to the blonde. She felt as if her heart had stopped in terror.
"Lucy," the Dragon Slayer said in fatalistic softness and a fiery gleam in his eyes. "I love you…" Then his face mutated into something hideous with pure hatred. "…and despise you!"
She gulped hard and hid a little more behind Gray. The ice wizard felt her clinging hands shivering. If they were not in the middle of the guild, he probably really would beat Natsu into a coma just for scaring Lucy like this.
Finally, Makarov stepped up to stop the confrontation. "Natsu, Gray, Lucy." All three looked over at the tiny man. "Go home, all of you. And Natsu…"
"Fuck you!" the Dragon Slayer roared. "Fuck all of you!" He ran out of the guild hall with tears in his eyes.
Lucy silently watched him go. She realized that this was what she had wanted all along, to humiliate Natsu, to turn him down in front of everyone and let him experience the heartache she had felt the day he dumped her in front of all of her friends. She had succeeded. Her revenge worked precisely according to plan.
She should feel happy … but she didn't! She had treated Natsu as selfishly as he treated her.
In the end, she was no different than him.
Gray took Lucy's hand and pulled her out of the guild. She stumbled along numbly. Natsu's words of hatred rang in her ears. No one had ever yelled at her like that before, let alone a friend she cared for deeply.
As they walked toward Gray's house, Lucy looked up to the ice wizard. She hated that she used him for this. Natsu could have blown everything, and there was no guarantee that he would never mention that mission and what really happened. She would either have to explain it to Gray, or live with the fear of exposure every day of her life.
"I'm sorry," she whispered almost too quietly to be heard over the noise of the city.
Gray squeezed her hand. "Don't worry about it. Natsu's a hothead. It's not your fault."
Her eyes dropped. She meant that she was sorry she had betrayed Gray, and sorry she did not have the courage to tell him the truth yet. She would, though. She had to clear up all of this. Even if it led to them breaking up, she had to come clean with the truth.
Just … not today.

End of Chapter 8

A/N: The GrayLu youtube video "Super Psycho Love" is one year old today. Moonlessnight126 has received over 47,000 hits...probably a hundred them are mine, haha! You can see the video at http://youtu.be/bxk1LwjcJ10 and leave her a message thanking her for inspiring me to write this fanfic based on her outstanding anime music video.
- 7
- 8
- 9
You need to be logged in to leave a review for this story.You need to be logged in to leave a review for this story.
Report Story

Super Psycho Love