Dark Love

Title: Dark Love

Author: Tainted
angel-ai

Rating: R

Warning: Yaoi,
Rape, Lemon

Author’s note: Okay
I was requested to write this story on the pairing Yue x Spinel, this is my
first time working on a story outside from Syaoran x Eriol and Sakura x Tomoyo so
please do go easily on me. It’s also a one shot…though very long.

Disclaimer: None
of them belong to me.

One Shot

Why is it that no matter what you do to make yourself
noticed it works the exact opposite? I tried to make myself noticed…noticed and
loved but all I was delivered was more harshness and absolutely no love.

It has pushed me, pushed me too far to accept such an
answer. I don’t know why I expected myself to be noticed, who would notice me?
I’m a nobody I have only one purpose and that’s to protect
my Master Reed…or now known as Eriol Hiiragizawa.

This is my only purpose for life, no love and no acceptance;
no anything I am who I am because that is my purpose.

I may have asked to change forms from my small cat like toy
to the seventeen year old dark haired teenager boy, but I am still that
toy…still a nobody amongst the eyes of the person I
long for.

I don’t know why my life has to be so harsh…why I have to
have fallen in love with the one person who could never love me in return…the
same person who already has a true love.

I hate myself for being so weak…for not being able to accept
the fact that I can not be loved.

I was lying in my room on my large king sized for posted bed
it was something like midnight…I don’t know I had lost track of time a while
back.

I felt so numb…my body was weak as all I could seem to think
about was him…his long white hair, his crystal blue eyes his angel face….

I guess I should explain you see I’m in love with an angel
named Yue, well his not really an angel but in my eyes he is.

And it was because I liked Yue that I asked my master to
give me the body of a human.

I have dark blue eyes outlined with thick long lashes and my
waist length navy hair that I kept in a loose ponytail.

But all this and I was still going un noticed, actually to
say the truth when I met him for the first time in my human form he had treated
me different…not the way I wanted, it was more harsh he was even more distant
from me.

That was the exact opposite reaction I wanted from him, he
became colder to me and would never talk to me unless it was highly necessary.

It’s been half a year since I became human looking, two
weeks since I last saw him and one hour since I last cut myself.

Yes I cut myself, foolish of me I know but how else am I
meant to express myself, to try and get rid of the pain? I never go too far as
to actually kill myself no matter how many times I look at the knife as it cuts
my skin thinking this is it, I will do it today. I guess in a way I’m scared of
dying, scared of what will happen after.

So I only hurt myself to an extent, master knows nothing of
this thank goodness. He knows that I love Yue that my wish to become human
looking was for Yue that the angel had become even more distant from me but he
didn’t know that I have reverted to cutting myself…I couldn’t bring myself to
show him that I am weak.

I rolled over onto my stomach, I couldn’t sleep I looked
down to my wrists thay iay in front of me, they had stopped bleeding.

I sighed and finally stood. I just can’t sleep, the air is
muggy from the heat wave we had during the day but t is is humidity in the
air, I can feel it, there is rain nearby.

I pulled on a black shirt and some dark jeans, brushing my
hair through once before leaving my room and the house.

I needed some air, walking sounded like a good idea at the
moment.

So here I am walking down the dark streets there were indeed
clouds in the sky but it was not about to rain anytime soon.

I l>I entered the park my head bowed as I walked quietly down
the footpath, of course that was until I heard a wig snap just near me.

I spun around rather too quickly as I nearly lost my
balance.

My dark eyes madly scanning the area, there was no sound…but
I could feel it…someone was near me…watching me.

I felt suddenly panicked…I could see no one but they could
see me, then I heard it again a twig snapping to my left, I spun to that
direction…again no one was there.

I felt surrounded suddenly, fear was building and for some
reason I was frozen where I was never did the thought cross my mind to use
magic, to call for help…to run.

The next thing happened to quickly someone pounced on me
knocking me harshly to the ground; there was a weight on me pinning me down.

I blinked my eyes open with a wince as pain surged through
my head. There was someone above me…

This figure soon took shape, it was a boy…he was in his
early twenties to late teens, he was looking down at me with dark brown lusting
eyes, near me I heard another twig snap.

It soon dawned on me that indeed I was surrounded, it was a
gang that had surrounded me, each carried weapons…pocked knives that gleamed in
the dark.

I was panicking, these men meant business and there was
something that they wanted from me it wasn’t until lips came down viciously onto
mine that it struck me like a ton of bricks.

I tried to scream for help but the lips were muffling it and
my scream allowed the tongue to enter my mouth, it was a sickening feeling, I
heard myself whimper as a hand went roughly into my hair pulling it at the
roots, the body shifted.

I was in deep fear, I wanted so badly to escape but I was
too shocked to think of anything…to even do anything; I could only lie here
whimpering as my lungs began to demand air.

I was scared, my body was shaking, my eyes wide, I felt a
tear slid down my cheek…I hardly ever cry, I’m meant to be strong…I’m a
guardian…I’m meant to be strong but I’m not…I’m weak I can’t even defend myself
from this human.

He broke the kiss allowing my burning lungs to take in air,
which I did, I took in trembling breaths as I stared at my attacker; he was
smiling cruelly as he looked down at me.

I am useless, no one will save me, it all dawned on me now, class=GramE>I will never have a night in shinning armour to save me, to
cry in their arms…I will always be alone…

A hand ran under my shirt causing me to freeze in thoughts
my body tensed suddenly, I felt so sick.

His hand was roughly caressing my skin I could already feel
his hardness pressed against me, this was all too scary, I don’t know what to
do except lie here and take it, no that’s not right, I shouldn’t roll over for
this…I shouldn’t be allowing this.

Again I began to struggle, I let out a scream as the
attackers hands suddenly shot to my neck holding a pocket knife to my skin, I
could feel the metal pressed against my skin…it held slight pressure which
allowed a small trail of blood to trickle down my neck.

I had frozen again my eyes clenched closed as I tried to
wish everything away, why did I leave the house? I could be at home in safely
instead of out here.

I felt my body giving in; this is so unlike me…I am always
the fighter, the strong one, but for so long now I have been weak, felt weak.

The man was smiling at me, I couldn’t see him but I knew
that was what he was doing, it wasn’t soon after that I felt rough lips pressed
against my neck teeth grazing the skin.

I bit my lower lip, the knife was still pressed to my neck…I
wanted to fall into unconsciousness I don’t want to be awake for this.

My body was trembling still I remained conscious but I could
slowly feel that leaving me.

I heard a scream…then another…and another….the body was
suddenly off me the knife also away from my neck, I heard more screams and then
running…but I kept still I lay on the pavement with my eyes closed I was slowly
falling asleep, even if I wanted to open my eyes I don’t think I could have.

I felt a hand slid under my knees and behind my back and
slowly I was lifted with these strong arms, I was held close and tightly to a
warm chest, my head resting at the crook of the neck. I was being held tightly
and protectively, my night and shinning armour came.

I lost consciousness.

I don’t know how long had passed before I woke but when I
did wake I found myself in a dark room lying on a bed.

I sat up and scanned the room, it was large but not mine I
felt confused as I looked around.

Where am I? What happened?

Then it all hit me…the men, the kisses, the touches, the
knife, screaming, hands, warmth, safely.

“Your awake” I heard a deep voice state, I looked over to the
window, I hadn’t noticed somebody had been standing there looking out of the
large windows.

I studied this person, it was dark but the windows allowed a
little light in, this person was tall that much was definite, but then the
figure turned to me and I gasped…it was him…Yue.

He looked at me with those blue eyes, he showed no emotion.

I could only nod as I looked at him he walked to me slowly
his eyes never leaving mine.

He now stood just near the bed looking down at me as I
looked up to him.

“How are you feeling?” he asked me, I could only nod once as
I was sucked into those blue eyes, slowly he kneeled in front of me so he was
at eye level to me.

He was studying me, searching me for something. I felt a
tremor pass through me as he rested a hand on mine, it was a warm hand much
larger then mine.

He was still studying me.

“Why didn’t you stop them?” he asked, his voice was below a
whisper, I felt confused but slowly I understood what me meant, why hadn’t I
stopped those men who were going to rape me…

“I don’t know” was all I could say, he didn’t seem to like
my answer as he lightly frowned.

“You could have been hurt” he stated again as he studied me,
I nodded.

“Yes but no one would notice” I don’t know why I said this
it just came and sounded like the right thing to say.

Yue was confused by my words as he studied me again. “Why do
you say this?” he asked me.

It was my turn to frown, “Because it’s the truth” I spoke,
it was true, no one would notice my pain, they never have.

He tilted his head slightly to one side, it was such a
mortal action that in a way I found suited him, he was studying me deeply with
those crystal eyes "You think no one will care if you are hurt?” he
questioned me.

I nodded my head slowly “No one will notice” I said simply,
he was confused with my answers.

“Why do you speak this?” he asked me with once again a small
frown returning to his face.

I sighed as I finally looked away from him and to my hands,
I was unable to answer.

“Your arms, was that your doing?” he asked again, his voice
held an emotion, it was hard to distinguish it though, it was hardly even
there.

I nodded though “Yes, no one has noticed these cuts…so no
one will notice if I am hurt” I said, I don’t know why I was telling him all
this and not just making up lies, but for once in my life I just didn’t care.

There was a small silence until his voice spoke once again
below a whisper “I noticed” I looked back to him, his eyes were still on me and
for a first I saw some stronger emotions it was sadness…worry.

I don’t know what to say…I could only look into his eyes. It
was him who finally looked away, that was odd.

He stood again and turned his back on me and approached the
window once again as he looked out of it I studied him.

He was wearing his usual but I was still confused about a
few things.

“Why did you help me?” I asked he turned to me as if
forgetting I was there.

“Why wouldn’t I?” he asked me as his head tilted to the
side.

I frowned “That’s not much on an answer” I said feeling a
little angry.

He smiled which was a first since it was directed at me,
“Your’s haven’t been much of answers either, so I guess were even” he stated.

I frowned “Then will you tell me where I am?” I asked.

He looked at me before once again walking over to me,
“You’re at my place” I was stunned, his place? He has a place?

“Your place? You mean Kinomoto-sans
house?” I questioned, he slowly shook his head.

“No I mean my place, as you may notice this is too big of a
room to be Kinomoto-sans house” he was looking down at me, his face serious.

Again I scanned the room, “I didn’t know you had a place” I
stated, maybe we were at Yukito’s house…after all Yukito and Yue do share the
same body.

Yue nodded “I have for some time now” he answered me as he
looked around the room as well.

“Is there something more to this?” I found myself asking not
even knowing what I meant by this.

He looked back to my slightly shocked before his gaze
softened…yes softened…he smiled and nodded.

“Hai there is something more” he said but to me it seemed he
wasn’t about to clarify.

“And can I ask about this?” I requested as I studied him, he
seemed to hesitate slightly.

“I can’t, not yet anyway” he said sadly as he looked away
from me as if ashamed to speak, I frowned.

“I understand” I pulled the blankets back and moved to
stand, Yue had moved to stand as he looked at me confused.

“What are you doing?” he asked as he stepped back from me.

I glanced to him but began walking to the door.

“I’m going home” I stated as I opened the door.

He followed me out of the room “Are you sure you should be
walking?” he asked me.

I only shrugged as I looked left then right, I’m lost…

“Where’s the exit?” I asked ignoring his last question.

He sighed and pointed to the left.

I started walking in the direction when all of a sudden
everything began to spin, it was unbearable as I stumbled backwards, my hand on
the side of my head, again I felt those warm arms wrap around me.

They moved around my waist as I fell back against his the
strong chest, my eyes were closed as I tried to push the dizziness away.

“Spinel what’s wrong?” I heard his voice in worry near my
ear.

I knew I was frowning as my head rested back onto his chest
his arms were tight around me as I was held to him. I felt like I was melting
in his embrace, it was so warm, but still the world went round.

I groaned as my eyes opened slowly finally everything was
settling down, but still I never want to leave this position, but I knew I had
to.

“Nothing” I almost snapped, I didn’t want to leave his arms
but I knew he would only find my attraction to him sick, anyway hved ved Touya.

“That’s not true, your not well” he snapped coldly back at
me, I went to move out of his grip but he wouldn’t let me go, I sent a glare
over my shoulder to him but it made no difference as he returned the same
glare.

“I’m fine and would like to go now so please let me go” I
said angrily but he shook his head.

“it’s still nightfall it’s too dangerous for you to go
outside” I growled as I tried to free myself, I mean I may like the way he’s
holding me but I don’t like the way he’s treating me.

“I can take care of myself” I found myself snapping as I
looked at him over my shoulder.

He frowned “It didn’t look that way when I found you” I
glared, he was beginning to fall into the annoyance category. I know I like him
and all but I hate being treated as if I’m weak…even though I am.

“Well that was just a one time thing, I was too stunned to
do much” I growled as I fought harder, but he was strong.

“Spinel you will stay here until morning” he ordered with anger
and before I could complain again I felt my mind growing foggy and heavy, he
was placing a sleeping spell on me.

“Yue…please…” I heard myself almost beg as I began to fall
asleep again I was picked up and held to his chest.

“I’m sorry Spinel, please don’t hate me for this” he
whispered, this is confusing, why would he ask this of
me? I mean he has never liked me why would he care if I di lik like him?

I was too far to say anything, sighing I rested my head
against the chest and soon fell into a deep sleep with his magic.

It was long afterwards that I awoke again this time I found
myself in my room lying on my bed.

I sat up in confusion as I scanned the room. Yue was not
here.

As I dressed I began to wonder whether or not last night
really happened, if I had really had that run in with the gang and then Yue…it
all seemed real enough, shaking my head I left the room.

Aal>As I entered the lounge room I heard speaking, Eriol was
talking and another…it was Sakura.

I walked further into the room and saw Sakura sitting
opposite master her head bowed.

Eriol looked to me and smiled, behind him stood Syaoran who
was frowning as he studied Sakura.

Did I fail to mention that Eriol and Syaoran are lovers;
well they have been for almost a year now. They were practically inseparable.

I looked back to Sakura in confusion.

“Spinel-san, how are you feeling?” Eriol asked me kindly
brining my attentiock tck to him.

I nodded “Good master, why?” I asked as I studied him.

He smiled “When Yue brought you back you were a little pale”
he stated, I was shocked, so it wasn’t a dream…I really had met Yue.

I frowned as I looked back to Syaoran who nodded in
clarification.

“I…I thought that hadn’t happened” I spoke as I thought back
over the night, a shiver running through my spine as I remembered those touches
and kisses delivered by that boy.

“What should I do Eriol-kun?” it was Sakura who had spoken,
all attention turned back to her, she was looking at Eriol pleading.

Eriol sighed as he shook his head “It will be difficult for
you Sakura-san but I do believe it can be done” I was confused as I walked
behind master’s seat next to Syaoran.

“What’s happening?” I whispered to him, he glanced to me.

“Yue requested Sakura to split him from Yukito-san” he
stated, I frowned.

“Why would he ask that?” I asked him a little louder.

It was another who answered.

“Because he loves another” I looked up and towards the
voice, it was Yukito, he had walked back into the room carrying a tray of food
with Nakuru behind him smiling.

“Isn’t it cute?” she squealed as she jumped down on the
seat.

“But why?” I asked still confused,
Yukito smiled to me.

“I love Touya and he loves another, it would be a little
difficult for us to love two different people” he chuckled as he began eating.

Sakura sighed as she shook her head.

“But I don’t know if I can do this” she stated looking back
to Eriol who kindly smiled.

“Your strong Sakura-chan, you just need to believe in
yourself” he assured.

I was still in shock, Yue loves another? Who?

I felt sick…I wanted to leave…I had to get out suddenly.

“Gomen nasai but I must go” I bowed to all and before I
could hear any replies I left the house quickly.

I stayed r ofr of the park for known reasons and walked
instead to another park.

Sitting under a tree that overlooked the large lake I
sighed.

It was a nice day but this news made it seem dark, Yue was
in love with another but whom?

Lying back I glanced up at the leaves that swayed above me
blocking out the bright rays from the sun.

“Spinel” I heard a voice, I shot up and looked over my
shoulder, indeed there stood Yue looking at me.

“Yue…what are you doing here I thou-” he shook his head
cutting me off as he walked over and sat beside me.

“Sakura doesn’t need me nor Yukito to be there, she’s looking
through spells” he stated as he looked out over the lake.

I nodded as I also turned back to the water; we sat in
silence for a short time I was trying silently to figure out why he was here
with me of all people.

“I wanted to talk to you” he said as if reading my mind,
which of course he couldn’t.

“What about?” I asked him turning
so I looked at him, he was still watching the water.

“You know why I asked this of Sakura, Yukito-san told you
why” I nodded still feeling highly confused.

“He said it was because you love another…not Touya as Yukito
does” I stated as I studied him, he smiled and nodded his gaze never coming to
look at me, it was actually making me feel unsettled.

“That’s true, I do love another, but I’m scared this person
wont like me” he stated, I fully understand where he’s coming from, I mean
that’s what I’m going through.

“Well I guess you could just give it a shot, I mean the onlying ing you can get is a polite turn down or a yes” for the first time he lo
to
to me, his gaze locking with mine.

“You truly think that?” he asked, I smiled, I felt saddened
that I was helping him confess to another but then again I couldn’t have him
live in pain too scared to approach his love like me.

“Of course, not many could turn you down Yue” it came out
before I could stop it, in reaction my hands shot to my mouth as my eyes were
wide as I looked at him.

Stupid me stupid, why did I have to go and say that?

He was looking at me; my hands were still over my mouth as I
looked at him still cursing myself for that slip up, I shouldn’t have said
that…I should go now before this gets any worse.

I lowed my hands “I…I’m sorry…I should be going” I quickly
stood and ran back towards the house; I can’t believe I said that.

I went straight to mom nom not stopping for anything.

Falling on my bed I buried my head into the pillow, I can’t
believe I said that, Stupid me.

Somehow I ended up falling asleep.

I don’t know how long had past all I know was I slowly
opened my eyes and found a face hovering above mine, looking down at me.

I yelled in surprise as I shot up, luy thy the person
leaning over me had quickly sat back barely missing the head on collision.

I held my chest where my heart was beating much too fast.

“Y…Yue…what are you doing here?” I asked as I looked at him and
I was sent into confusion further as he smiled at me.

“Y…Yue?” I asked as I studied him.

He sat on the side of my bed and smiled as he studied me.

“Wh…what’s the matter?” I asked, it
seems I couldn’t get rid of my stutter he was making me really nervous.

“Nothing” he said simply as if it wasn’t weird enough that
he was in my room.

“Then why are you in my room?” I asked trying to get proper
answers out of him.

“I need to talk to you” he said as he smiled reassuringly.

“A?” I?” I asked as I sat further up.

He looked at me seriously, “What you said earlier…about it
being hard for anyone to turn me down…I’d like to test that” he said.

I frowned as I studied him to my surprise he actually held a
small blush.

“What do you mean…test it?” I questioned as I began to grow
even more nervous.

He looked up at me “Exactly what I said. Tomorrow
Kinomoto-san is going to split me from Yukito, and before she does I want to
make sure that I’m not doing this for nothing.”

I frowned “What do you mean by that? You’re doing it because
you love someone…”

He nodded as he watched me intently, this is getting nerve
raking.

“Hai, that’s true but I want to make sure that this person
can accept my feelings and hopefully return them so I know that I’m not doing
this for nothing, it’s going to be hard on all three of us, Kinomoto-san,
Yukito and I, I don’t wish to put them through all this and in the end have
done it for nothing.”

I nodded understanding, it sounded a little like me
actually, asking for this body out of love but never getting it “Well then why
don’t you go to this person?” I asked.

He smiled “I already have” he stated.

I frowned, feeling a little confused as to why he would be
telling me this. “What did they say?” I asked him.

Again he smiled e, te, that faint blush returning “I don’t
know I have yet to ask” he said as he looked at me.

I frowned, what’s he talking abo…class=SpellE>oh.My.Gosh….ME….He’s talking about ME!

I was fully wide eyed fn jun just looking at him, he noticed
my reaction seeing that now I understood.

He smiled and leaned forward, his hand cupping the side of
my cheek his face only inches from mine as he looked deeply into my eyes.

“It’s you that I love Spinel” he spoke below a whisper, his
warm breath grazing my cheek.

I couldn’t say anything this is my dream come true and yet
here I am in full shock watching him.

He smiled and then slowly leaned more forward, hesitating
enough for me to pull back, but I didn’t, I saw him smile and then the gap was
closed, his lips were against mine.

I felt like I was in heaven, that I was about to melt. My
eyes slowly closing as I fully sink into the kiss, his arms were soon wrapped
around me as he deepened the kiss.

This is my dream of all dreams playing out right here in
front of me…in reality.

My arms slowly wrapped around his neck deepening the kiss
further as I aloud his tongue to enter my mouth.

It wasn’t as gross as it had been with that boy this was
seductive, pleasant and warming.

I felt his body heavily against mine as I was pushed back
onto the bed, him moving on top of me.

The kiss was broken slowly allowing us both to breath and
slowly his lips began to trail caressingly across my cheek bone and neck.

I felt a moan pass my lips as I closed my eyes, his hands
gliding across my chest as he began to remove my shirt.

His clothing on the other hand seemed a little confusing on
exactly how you remove it, but somehow I was actually managing it.

His kisses had begun to trail across my chest with my
fingers in his silky hair.

My head pushed back into the pillows as his hands snaked over
my his his lips were so warm and soft against my skin.

Again the lips returned to mine in another deep soul
searching kiss. I can hardly believe that this was Yue it’s like a whole new
side of him that I’ve never seen before. This half was romantic…seductive…kind
hearted…I like it.

I heard him moan now as our tongues battled over dominance
and somehow I gave in giving him full control, not that I’d ever complain.

It soon came clear to me that both of us now wore no
clothing, his hands sweeping over me caressingly followed by his lips.

I whimpered slightly feeling my legs parted and a finger
entering me but soon I was silenced with those warm lips that comforted me with
their passionate kisses.

“Y…Yue” I heard myself whisper as his lips once again left mine,
my eyes were closed y hey head was pushed back deeply into the pillow, I felt
another finger enter causing my eyes to open suddenly.

Our bodies held a layer of sweat, my hair plastid over my
face as was his as his face hovered above mine our eyes locked and soon I felt
something larger enter me.

It hurt at first but
with time I grew accustomed to it. Yue moaned as he began to lightly bite my
neck suggestively.

My body trembled lightly when feeling the small probe
inside, it sent pleasure waves all through my body it made me moan as I bit my
lower lip, again and again this place was hit with
each thrust that was made, Yue’s lips recapturing mine with dominance.

Our movements quickened as a hand encircled around my
arousal rubbing with rhythm to the thrusts.

Our breaths were laboured as everything quickened, I felt
like I had been suddenly completed, his body heavy on top of mine as he made
love to me.

It was amazing, never had I believed it to be like this,
never had I thought I’d do it with Yue either.

“Yue” I moaned as I felt my release spill out and onto my
stomach, my muscles tightened and soon Yue followed in suit as he released his
seed inside me.

He collapsed on top of me with little energy, his breath
tickling my neck.

We both lay in silence for a few minuets trying to catch our
breaths slowly Yue rolled off me and spooned me closer to him as he nuzzled
into my neck.

As I drifted to sleep I heard his soft voice “Ai Shitireiru
Spinel-koi” I sighed snuggling further into the warmth.

“I love you too Yue-koi” I heard myself whisper before I was
pulled closer to warmth andl inl into a peaceful sleep in the arms of my lover.

~The End

Glossary:

Hai – Yes

Koi – Love/Lover

Ai Shitireiru – I Love you