I am not your doll

Flyin\' Hawaiian Productions (2004)

Eva belongs to those crazy fucks at Gainax etc.

This starts at a scene in the middle of End of Evangelion, I might fix it later.
Any and all reviews welcome, I\'m new so encourage me damn you!
I feel like putting one of those \"10 reviews for next chap\" threats up here lol, but I\'ll post the next chap as soon as I finish it.

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\"Please... help me, \" Shinji begged, \"please... care about me. PLEASE DON\'T KILL ME!\" He stood there, waiting for her to embrace him, waiting for the confirmation of the love she\'d always hidden.

\"No.\" Asuka said coldly.

For an instant he thought it was the beginning of the sentence he\'d hoped for, but slowly it dawned on him. She, the only person whose love he hadn\'t destroyed, didn\'t care about him. She was indifferent to him. Didn\'t care if he lived or died.

An evil grin flashed across Shinji\'s face as he realized what he was about to do. He had expected so much more: fear, anger, hatred. All he felt was relief. Relief in the knowledge that he was about to do this. That nobody could stop him. He didn\'t have any idea what he was going to do afterward. All that mattered was this one final act. As his arms rose he wondered why he hadn\'t done this sooner.

Asuka wasn\'t completely surprised when his hands closed around her throat. This little prick was finally being forced to acknowledge the true nature of their relationship. He was going to be angry. The crazy little fuck would probably even stalk her for a while, but it was worth it. She had finally broken herself off from him, and could now move on. This anger was meaningless, in thirty seconds he would be crying and begging for forgiveness. Disgusted, she hung limp from his hands and met his eyes with a cold stare.

The small contact with her skin made Shinji\'s erection throb. The thought of performing an act this absolute, destroying something infinitely beautiful, drove him forward. This was what he had been born to do; nothing else mattered. This was his ultimate act. He tightened his grip and watched as her expression never faltered. Even as her eyes clouded and every muscle in her body relaxed, her expression never changed. \"That fucking bitch\" he thought. She was going to hate this. She was going to fucking beg him to stop.

Suddenly filled with rage, he violently shook her body, looking for some response. She swung with no resistance at all. He stood mesmerized, watching her limbs swing back and forth.

He suddenly remembered the day he had gone to talk to her in the hospital.

*flash back*

When he entered her room, she was lying on her side, facing away from the door.

\"Asuka,\" he began, \"I need to talk to you. I need your help, there\'s nobody else I can go to. Asuka, can you hear me?\" He walked across the room, growing increasingly pissed at her refusal to acknowledge him.

\"Asuka, please...\" he grabbed her shoulder, trying to rouse her from whatever was keeping her from responding to him.

\"Help me.\"

He was losing control. He shook her shoulder, trying to wake her up. As she persisted in ignoring him, he shook her harder and harder. Finally he pulled her over, forcing her to face him.

At this point thinghings became apparent to Shinji. One, she was unconscious or comatose or something. Two, she was completely nude.

He stood there for several minutes, mesmerized by her stunning body. His eyes traveled up and down her several times. Slowly he became aware of what was forcing him to stare at her like this. It wasn\'t her smooth skin, or her perfect curves. It was the fact that she was completely motionless. Completely passive. Unable to stop anything he might want to do to her. She was his. He licked his lips as he examined her. This time not as any fny friend sneaking a peek, but as an owner deciding where he would start. Tentatively, he reached out to stroke the underside of her breast. He half-expected her to spring to life and kick the shit out of him, but she didn\'t. She just lay there, completely motionless. With growing confidence, he squeezed the massive mound of flesh between his fingers, feeling it distort.

Unconsciously, his other hand traveled down to his cock, stroking its growing length. He moaned as his hand traveled down her body, feeling every inch of her muscular form. By the time he reached her muscular thigh, he was pounding himself furiously. As he came, he held is breath out of habit to not make any noise and clamped his hand down her thigh.

As he came down from his orgasm, Shinji slowly began to take in the scene around him. He released Asuka\'s thigh and was disgusted by the handprint-shaped purple bruise on her smooth skin. His eyes slowly traveled to his other hand, and he was further disgusted by the stringy mass of cum covering it.

\"I\'m so fucked up.\"

*end flash back*

Shinji became suddenly aware of the body hanging fhis his hands. His anger had been replaced by lust for this object. He roughly dropped her, letting her form a pile on the carpet. Tentatively, he bent down and reached out to touch the soft skin of her cheek. The small contact with her smooth, hot skin set his erection on fire and spurred him forward. Moving downward, he ignored the purple and black bruises on her neck and proceeded straight to her huge tits. He cupped the twin mounds of flesh, weighing them, testing them. He experimented squeezing them, seeing how far he could deform her perfect tits. As he began to play with her nipples, he was scared half to death by a moan from above him.
\"That\'s right,\" he said, recovering from his shock, \"you\'re still here, aren\'t you?\'

Asuka had started to recover from her earlier near death experience, and awoke to Shinji\'s evil grin. \"Sh... Sh... Shinji, what happened?\" she asked.

He chuckled softly and returned to her luscious tits. \"I\'m raping you.\" He said simply. Still recovering, she didn\'t quite register what he had said, but as she felt his clammy hands roughly toying with her flesh, the situation clicked.

She swore in German as her eyes flew wide open and her whole body convulsed upward, struggling to get away.

This is what Shinji had been afraid of, this was the last test of his will. If he could get past this obstacle he would be capable of anything with her. He forced himself to ignore her screams and pin her arms and legs down with his own.

\"It\'s not that I want to hurt you,\" he started, \"it\'s just that, as a person, you\'re the only thing between me and total sexual happiness. Your body is perfect, and if I can just remove the moral barrier of your objections, I can be totally content.\"

She wanted to laugh out loud at the serious way he said this, did he seriously expect her to believe this? To just surrender her will to him so he could cum? A fresh wave of anger washed over her, she would show this crazy little fuck who was in control.

\"See,\" he interrupted her thoughts, \"the thing is that I\'ve already decided. I chose to do this, to view you this way. From now on you\'re nothing but a way for me to get off.\" A huge smile spread across his face as he realized again the liberation he had gone through. He bent down and crushed her lips with a bruising kiss before she could object. Her struggling created an arousing friction between them, and soon he had a plan worked out. Lifting himself onto his knees, but still holding her down, he released one of her arms just long enough to slap her as hard as he could across the face, making blood spray from her nose.

\"I\'m going to fuck you now, and I\'m going to need my hands to do it,\" he said, \"if you so much as fucking reach towards me while I\'m doing it I will beat you to death and find a new toy.\" He stared at her for several minutes, waiting for recognition.

Asuka was the most angry she had ever been, and met his stare with one of her own. The fucking second he let go of her she was going to be up and out of here, but not without beating his ass first. She slowly nodded, going over the plan in her head.

Shinji experimentally released one hand, and dodged fast as it flew for his face. Asuka wasn\'t saying anything, she was just desperately trying to hurt him. This time heughtught his fist into her cheek, making her neck twist painfully and her hand jump back involuntarily. Before she could recover, he did it again, landing the second blow just above the first. She had managed to control her screams so far, but this was too much. A gargled scream escaped her mouth as she recoiled from the pain.

While she was distracted, Shinji grabbed her free hand and returned it to its previous position, then stared at her and waited again. They stared angrily into each other\'s eyes for another several minutes. Eventually, Asuka looked away and Shinji knew he had won. He slid his hands down her arms, feeling his way down her slender arms and shapely tits, coming to rest on her hips.
Inexperienced, he immediately grabbed his cock and shoved it into her pussy. He would\'ve been surprised by her wetness if he hadn\'t been overwhelmed with the feeling of her surrounding him. He began frantically pounding into her, completely preoccupied by his own pleasure. As he increased his pace, he reached up and grabbed onto her tits, using them to pull her body down onto his cock. He screamed as he came inside her, and collapsed in total comfort on top of her body.

For a moment Asuka was afraid to move, then she experimentally shifted slightly. When he didn\'t r, sh, she saw her chance. She roughly rolled him off of her, stood up, kicked him in the ribs, and ran the hell out of there.

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Next episode: Asuka seeks revenge.