Doubt

Doubt

by J

I wander throught the thoughts in my heart,
and try to divine how you truly feel
Are you just playing me like an instrument?
Or do I really mean something special?

I want to see you smile, but you are a statue
I want to hold your heart, but you are a stone wall
I want to be with you, but you are a dream
I want to be your only one, but you belong to all

My feelings for you are a mystery to others
my heart doesn\'t know that it\'s wrong
my desires make me want you, despite it all
my soul tells me you are The One

I want to touch you, but you are a flame
I want to hold you, but you are a jellyfish
I want to kiss you, but you are smoke in the wind
I want to love you, but you are not mine at all

There is one who imagines me his enemy
who beats and ravages me with his crew
Protecting you with my body, I aquiese
Revenge for his actions, you came, and I knew

I care not for what others are saying
I care only for your feelings, and mine
I care not for the dark past that you carry
I care only for you, now that you are mine