Levi's Recollections

BY : konokoz
Category: +. to F > Attack on Titan /Shingeki No Kyojin
Dragon prints: 454
Disclaimer: I do not own the rights to Attack on Titan/Shingeki no Kyojin or any of the characters. This story is purely for entertainment, and I am not profiting from it.

The first time I met him, my urge to kill him was almost uncontrollable. Not because someone was paying me to. Not because he had his subordinates smash my face in dirty water. I wanted to kill him because he seemed arrogant. That tall blonde blue-eyed fucker.

Even though he pulled me out from the decaying world of the underground, clothed me, trained me, fed me, he was the reason I lost everything. He was the cause of me having my first taste of pure, putrefying despair and fear.

My friends.

He called my friends pathetic.

He called me crying on the ground in front of their dismembered bodies pathetic. His eyes were unsympathetic and condescending. Thinking back, perhaps I was reading them wrong, yet I almost took his head off, but he caught my blade in his bare hands.

Everything was his fault.

So, I thought.

Truly, everything was my own fault. All my decisions led to this outcome. I could have denied that corrupt politician’s request. I could have said no to leaving the underground. I could have said no to my friends’ decisions to go on this expedition. It was all my fault. This unbearable feeling of anguish and dread was all from my own volition.

As I knelt, feeling defeated for the first time, soaking wet in the rain, the entrails of my friends, and the mysteriously evaporating blood of the titan I just slaughtered, from the top of his horse he told me not to regret any of my decisions from there on out. Nothing would come of doing that but failure. Never doubt them- it would only negate from my companions’ deaths. Take responsibility, and advance forward.

It was as if he read my mind.

I hated him. I wanted to kill him, but I needed to follow him. If I didn’t, what would be left of me?

“He expected me to.” His words.

So I had to.

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